And here’s what I got out of it.
I’ve been gone for a minute but I’ back with a new post. Read on about what I’ve been doing to keep myself busy during my recovery.
To all those who experienced January as a long ass year, congratulations! You’ve made it to February! As you might have known, I had some goals set for last month. Phew, where to begin? 24 Books goal Well for starters, I didn’t manage to read two books last month. I did manage however to finish one, which I also wrote about. Currently reading book #2: The little black book by Otegha Uwagba. In all honesty, had it been in English, I’d finished long time gone. It’s not the most complicated or thickest book. I just have a harder time getting through books written in Dutch. But we’re still only in February! Can I still reach the 24 books by the end of 2019? We’ll see… How did it go with the working out, you ask? *Scratches head* I haven’t been on the mat for a week…Yes, today it has been a week. Which means I haven’t done yoga nor any other exercises for a week. Meaning, the muscles are shrinking bit by bit again. I will have …
Welcome to the belated weekly report of week 2 and 3! As of week 1 I pledged to share the progress of my goals with you. Now that we finished week 3, let’s see how that has gone. Exercise 2-3 times per week With pride I can say, I nailed it and failed it! The goal for January is 2-3 times per week, the long-term goal for 2019 is every day. Hence I was hella proud of myself when in week 2 I marked Friday as day my fifth day of exercise. For the weekend I intended to d extended yoga sessions, but I got lazy. This laziness stretched itself along to week 3. I literally didn’t do one bit of exercising for week 3. And it was noticeable. At least for myself. I was less energetic and also a lot more on edge. Because to be frank: yoga has been doing great things for my mental state. Plus: a bitch is almost able to reach her toes again! Read 2 books this month One …
Now that 2018 is coming to an end it’s time for the usual new year’s resolutions. Only this time next to my goals I made a list of less vs more. Find out what made it to my list.
What will happen if I do this? Should I have said it differently? Why would he say that? And the most killing of all: what will people think? Welcome to the train of thought of an overthinker. As you might have noticed, I am a ridiculous overthinker. My head will do overtime in times when I don’t need it. It also causes me to hold on to a particular situation longer than is necessary, which gives me so much stress. This will be affect me physically, but even worse, also mentally. This photo is a perfect image of when I do let shit go. When I just live in the moment and my mind is at ease. Circumstances might not allow me to relax at all times, but I do know it’s necessary to make room to relax the mind and just LET THAT SHIT GO. For the overthinkers like me, who find themselves trapped by their own thoughts, try to make time for your mind to hush up for a minute and enjoy the …
My 10 days off are over. I’m not gonna pretend I’m glad it’s over and I can get back to work, because I’m not. And that has nothing to do with me being lazy, but with other factors I will get into later on.
So what all did I find out about myself during this 10 day break?
On Sunday’s my mother after my mom went to church, we’d cruise around to wherever. Yeah, we would literally just get in the car and drive to certain towns. Admiring the houses, talk about what it’d look like from the inside, look at some poor choices of gardening. But most importantly, it allowed me to dream. Oh, how I would dream. Life didn’t turn out that way, tho. Now, you might think this has me absolutely depressed, because clearly my life isn’t as I had dreamed it would be. But I’m not, at least not anymore. Which is exactly what has me writing this today.
I’ll be taking you to one of the most memorable days of my life: my sister’s wedding, where I held my first public speech, my niece stole the show and I caught the bouquet (YES BIH). Mind you, today it’s the two-month anniversary of her wedding! Also we’re going sailing with my best friend, going BTS of my beloved partner in crime’s photoshoot and you’re gonna meet some of my family members.
I’d like to dedicate this piece to my dear friend. She called me last night -we hadn’t talked on the phone or in person for at least 2-3 months- to tell me how much my previous post. This meant a lot, as this is exactly the reason I do this. But then she asked me a question and it was a question I had asked myself many times. How do I keep going when everything is going to shit?
Had she asked me this 4 years ago, I would’ve told her: by surviving.
But now, in 2017, I know how to keep going even when everything seems to fall apart and I want to share it with you.